Jōb Nikki

“Heal”

Mourning my life

Shedding my skin

Holding onto the hope

I don’t quite believe in

Leaving room for improvement

Fingertips reaching for yours

I have to look inward

To heal all of these scars

Truth is fluid

Events are scrambled

I want to be better

I want to be honest

Love is explosive

Life is constant

Wondering what you’re doing

I have to look within

I can’t control

I can’t contain

I have to become better

So I can begin

Letting go of people

Who left me on the street

Hoping tomorrow is better

And I can stand on my own two feet

Praying my children will grow up

To know I was good

And always tried my best

I’ll love you forever

Cross my heart

Marching toward death

Healing is harder

When you’ve lived through

So many fires

Tomorrow is coming

Time never stops

Become who I should be

Even though they wouldn’t let me

I can’t change my thoughts

But I can change my methods

Of convincing everyone I wasn’t wrong

It doesn’t matter anymore

When no one was ever listening

Healing is silent

It must be done alone

The hardest part

Is never knowing

If I’m finally home