Cursed and blessed
Cursed and blessed
Everyone here is cursed and blessed
I’m the only one here
I’m so captivating
Mesmerizing
All of my exes always come back
But I don’t want broken promises
I want integrity
And dignity
If I’m fighting for you
You need to catch the moment
I can be strong
But only for so long
I won’t lie to you
Or sugarcoat your flaws
I’ll admit my own
And always self improve
But I’m an easy target
An unwanted
And unloved daughter
Forsaken at birth
When you mess up
You can point to all the ways they hurt me
How no one ever wanted me
The cruelest of songs
But I am more than that
I made something of myself
Then it was all ripped away
Unjustly
And you used to want to fight that with me
But when we were staring
Evil in the face
it broke you
While it devastated me
Now you use my deepest hurt
You use the most egregious wrongs
Shooting them into my chest
To prove you were never wrong
I don’t hate you
Quite yet
But my patience is growing thin
Don’t be another one
That comes back
When I have no love to offer
When you’ve destroyed my spirit
Killed my laughter
By distracting and blaming
To avoid looking within
Jōb Nikki 
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