I’m free falling
Into a void
Everyone is relieved
I’m not their problem anymore
Easy target
“Kick me”
On my back
You can’t stand up
Or speak
When lies are published
Front page headlines
How can so many
Be against someone
So sad
My last chance
Shoved me aside
If you loved me
You’d be sitting by my side
But we don’t talk about
Wrongs committed
To the unwanted
So many unloved
One of the masses
No safety net was ever provided
I crumple myself up
Shove myself in the corner
What a relief to sleep
Until nightmares
Still intrude
Jolting me back
To a reality
Frightening
Pathetic
Stupid bitch
I cry by myself
Then I make peanut butter toast
Fake a smile
So I have somewhere to live
No longer able to fight
No longer able to think
I’m irreparable
My darlings
I died
Fighting for you
A battle left buried
Under truths
Unspoken
I loved
I lived
Then I learned how to die
Jōb Nikki 
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