Cover your eyes
Plug your ears
I savagely need you
In order to survive
But you don’t want
To be in the same room
If you have to admit
Your violence
And betrayal
That made me scream
And yank at my chain
Keep me in secret
Tell them your single
I only beg for a while
It’s only after
You’ll realize
I’m a spark
That never goes out
That’s why boys
Continue to reach out
After I’m gone
But dear
You never had anything
To fear
Because once it’s over
I never go back
And you dangle me
While I’m hopeless
Not realizing
Always I rise
Not because I want to
But I keep heaven
In my back pocket
A sick obsession
With my pain
Schadenfreude
A cruel
Sick fetish
For my suffering
I’ve been given a curse
Of passion
That makes you feel alive
But it’s not permanent
If you leave me
Once it’s over
I’ll never let you back in
So you talk to your ex
Reminisce about conception
While on shrooms
Because if you don’t fight for us
I’ll bottle myself up
For the next fool
Who thinks he can save me
Not understanding
He too will hurt me
When I demand
To be treated fairly
I thought you were the one
But maybe I’m just dumb
Jōb Nikki 
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