It wasn’t all me
And I wasn’t too much
The things I spoke out against
We’re justifiably
Breaking us
I might sound proud
And conceited
But I’m just saying what everyone
Should have been telling me all along
It’s okay to be sad
For nothing to make you truly smile
After worlds have crumbled
But you
As in me
Still gave a kind nod
In the efforts being made
And you
As in me
Still tried to show kindness
Not just in public
Because you
As in me
Is a good person
Who has seen too many ironies
Steal away
Hard earned pieces of life
But you
As in me
Still fight
For a life filled with joy
I love you
My child
I love you
My soulmate
Even if I never get to have any of you again
I know
I did my best
Which was more than most
And that’s why I can wake up
And smile
After a sleepless night
Filled with heartbreaking reels
Of what all went wrong
I’ll hold strong
And console myself
Because the brutal attacks are over
I never deserved all of that pain
Jōb Nikki 
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