If you want a relationship to work
You have to become a partner
United in all things
That does not mean you agree on all things
But you stand united
If I say I can not be around old perverted men
You hold my hand and we walk away
If you say you don’t want me to be friends with my exes
Then I delete their numbers and black out their faces
But if you decide
You have such strong convictions
That you must be by that dirty old man’s side
Then go stand with him
And hold his hand
I’ll catch another ride
If you fuck up
I’m going to tell you
You fucked up
If you lie
I’m going to point at the misaligned edges
If I’m mad
I’m going to raise my voice
Without even noticing
Because that’s who I am
Passionate and full of fire
Just like you wanted
I feel everything
All the time
I notice all of it
All at once
And I’m not going to be
A quiet little church mouse
Looking like a burn victim wearing a wig
You tried out that mannequin
I’m sorry
But I’m sick of being sorry
And if aging up
Another decade
Has taught me anything
My conviction of honesty is my halo
Wearing it proudly
Even crooked and unpolished
But I will not hold my tongue
I’m too old to learn new tricks
I can’t ignore my hard earned knowledge
However
I will kiss you like we’re on fire
I will launch stars at the moon
To show you I’m sorry
I’ll write songs with you
On the hood of an old
Beat up Chevy Impala
But I won’t put down my head
And pretend everything is okay
When I can’t stomach the way a grown man
Touches a young girl because he has money
You have to face what you did
Because you can’t stand me speaking up
Take me or leave me
This is where you need to say
I’m sorry
Putting a name to what you did
And no limit on how long the pain will be carried
Trust isn’t automatic
And I can’t provide an end date
But I can say I forgive more than most
As long as you’re trying
Jōb Nikki 
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