I’ve been here
But not here before
I’m cold
And hot
I’m angry
And sad
I’m broken
And blue
I can’t stop swirling
As the earth stops spinning
Throwing everyone off
Except for me
Because it wants me to feel its ending
It wants me to see the solar system halt
It wants me to feel as souls are taken from bodies
I see
I feel
I feel too much
Let me lie down
Let me stop feeling
Let me be
Let me be
It will not stop
It will not move forward
I say I’m sorry
Not good enough
I say I’ll be better
Not good enough
I became what I said
Not good enough
I take a seat on a boulder
Watch the monumental tides roll in
I once told a lover
I saw this in a dream
We will all be still
We will all fall down
I hate that I saw it first
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Jōb Nikki 
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