Jōb Nikki

“Revolt”

They say feminism is excessive

But I’ve been to a part of the world

That changed a man

As selling women was the norm

And expecting them to sit

Slightly intoxicated 

Completely complacent

Was violently expected

Shaking their tits

When a joke was made

Of course she’s a good girl 

For a couple of months

You’re paying her

To not have to suck his 

You get the idea

Then spying on her 

Like property

You know this isn’t right

As you travel in pods

And shame the western woman

For thinking she has a voice

Not anymore

We aren’t in the states

“You made me miserable”

You made me feel unsafe

You wooed me

While waiting for the final paperwork to be signed

I should have known better

But you found me already on the floor

The world is against me

Dramatic and extreme

Just like my story

I don’t want to be here

And the algorithms have kicked me out

For voicing that publicly

Because we can watch intestines being twisted 

From the inside out

Only on the big screen

But facing our own grief

Is too much to bear

I am decimated

No one wants to hear

They are just getting by

But I’ve been fighting for my life 

Since I took my first breath

I need a hand to hold 

You’re not supposed to say that

I can’t stand on my own

Don’t dare say that

I’m going to die without love

We warned you twice

I scream at the night

It’s too much

It’s too much this time

“You’ve done it before”

Not like this time

I’ve lost too much blood

It’s dripping on the fucking floor

I can’t anymore

Face the light 

Stop trying to fix people who hurt you

Heal from your wounds 

Pay your fines on time

You can’t drive

We won’t let you get there

I’m flying blind

I want

I need

I close my eyes