Jōb Nikki

“Tired”

Are you tired dear reader

Me too

I’m tired of being told it could be worse 

By people living in houses 

People who are loved

People who haven’t had people out to get them

People who haven’t been beaten

People who created me and forsook me

Are you tired , dear reader, of listening to me complain

Me too

I’m tired of losing everything

Of being wronged

Of not being able to make things right

Of not being loved

Of not being able to be there for those I love

Of working for nothing

Are you tired of me going back and forth

Me too

I’m tired of missing him

Wanting love

Wanting patience

Wanting kindness

Wanting what he promised

Wanting what he gave at the beginning

I’m tired

Tired of existing

Tired of surviving 

Tired of begging 

Tired of being left

Tired of being unwanted

I’m tired dear reader

I dare say, more than you