“Familiar”
Pain is the only familiar thing left
As I search for family
In a house of mirrors
Distorted visions of myself
Houses with spiral staircases
Catching fire
I’m always the one who is left
As they torch my life
To ensure there is no trace
Of the abuse
I needed to be protected
As the rafters fell down
Instead I was shoved back in
As they locked the door
I had to feel it all coming down
Now they stand over me
Demanding I clean up this mess
With no help and no tools
“Here we go again
She’s talking about herself”
As I huddle inside what’s left of the fireplace
To keep myself whole
And something like warm
I’m so scared
I’m shaking
But that’s old news
And everyone has their problems
How dare I get mad and scream
And be goddam fucking pissed off
This is why nobody cares about me
This is why I’m always alone in the end
This is why
This is why
This is why
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